ambiguity,

Dear Girls,

I’m writing this in hopes just one young female with a lack of self confidence will read this. I do not have hardly any followers, so I’m relying on women around the world to search and see this post…

Today, I had a revelation. But first, I’ll tell you a little about myself.

I am twenty years old, going on twenty one. I am in my last semester of university. I have never had a boyfriend, I have made mistakes though. My lack of self confidence shone through, which some took advantage of… and I let them. I have severe depression, I’m still medicated and see a psychiatrist but I’m no longer ashamed. I was overweight, by a lot. I’ve lost just over 30 kilograms all up since high school. I was miserable back then, girls bitched about me and called me fat and boys don’t like girls who are overweight, in fact, society hates them. So I hated me. I had really deep and dark thoughts. I wanted to die. I would cry because I had life.

Things are different now. I’ve travelled, seen the world and escaped that horrible prison, school. I’ve avoided alcohol and bad people in my life. I now go to the gym everyday. I study harder than I ever have and I have beautiful friends. I’m focused. 

Society is horrible. They tear us to shreds and we get stuck in a very bad place. This is not another post to encourage people to feel beautiful. There are many out there and I know I never believed them myself. I rejected compliments and thought they were lies. Rather, this is a post to encourage a change of mindset. Things do not get better until you make them better. Want to change. Want to prove society wrong. I do think each woman is beautiful in various ways, unfortunately society doesn’t. Make them think that. I want to just spread the message onto one woman. 

Mahatma Ghandi said “Be the change you wish to see in the world”, that’s what I’m trying to do. Standing up and recognising society is wrong. That mental health facilities in my country (Australia) are not adequate, just like many other places in the world. That women are beautiful in the ways they are and should only change if they are unhappy. If someone tells you you’re not good enough - SHOW THEM YOU ARE. If you’re unhappy… change.

I’ve been there, I’m the classic example of that.

Remember you are beautiful, walk confidently. You deserve it.

Allah:

blackaurora:

Help me change.

Help me change.

Help me change.

Because I do not want to be like this anymore, my Lord. 

And I cannot change without your help.

Please help my helpless soul. 

Hold me upright. 

Get me through this. 

Please.

(Source: BlackAurora, via thebeautyofislam)